Retired

I wanted to ruin you, Never having anything to show Friend of my foe. You never know what your motives are, Losing my trust in you, Burying in this water so clear, Changing tides, you switched sides. Selfishly giving up what was fought for, I loved you more than my brother. Would have sworn there…

Misfit

up before 5 am, These dreams have me on edge again. Seeing images from my past, Memories I need not last. A time when I was too lost to choose. Every day seemed like bad news. One of anger, Misery and loneliness. Always a misfit. Romanticizing trauma, reliving my drama. Today I sit in a…

Truth

The truth? No one wants to hear the truth. I could tell you tomorrow the cure for cancer, if it meant no longer eating the foods you wanted, you’d tell me to go fuck myself. People are choosing surgery and life-threatening medication instead of restructuring their lives and eating habits. The truth? It’s too inconvenient….

Remember

It’s your birthday today and I dreamt of you last night, Ironic right? You had the life I’ve always thought I wanted. Leaving me in a wake of destruction, I remember you then, Asking if I’d lay with you in your bed, No one had to know. Your in my mind now, Forged in steel,…

Contend

You speak of women in history, their struggle for power, But only if it suits your sour agenda. One for the show, Leaving your own out on the street in her hour of defeat. Beliefs being put to the test, Unable to rest. Needing soldiers by my side, instead, you all ran to hide. Not…

Blast

Shadows of broken dreams Leaves me busting at the seams, Wondering what’s left of me. Full moon peeking through curtains exposing secrets from the past. These memories always seem to last, Putting my self-growth on blast. Continuing to fill me with hope, These feelings invoke unwanted memories enveloping the cracks of my soul. Collapsing down…

Grown

Tomorrow our energies will merge, Will you feel discouraged, Seeing me there all alone, My how I’ve grown. Walking out on my own, Into the unknown. Proving headstrong in places you think are all wrong. Once convincing me of love, stringing my heart along to a place, it never belonged. Our friendship all wrong, A…

Reciprocate

I woke up and didn’t think about you today. Maybe everything Will be okay after all. Picking myself up after the fall, Finding hope, finding new ways to cope. Becoming stronger with each passing moment, regardless of the pain or your atonement. No longer able to write or run but I can still enjoy my…

Compare

Do I have the strength to pursue all you never knew? To outgrow everything you reap, Finding love where there was once hate, This is not my fate. Solace alone is all I’ve ever known. Filling up empty spaces where you once resided, My home for you I provided. Our growth coincided until I was…

Peacefully

Waking in pain and you’re all to blame. One and the same, abusers playing a game. Wondering how I got here, Nineteen years to walk away, Locked in a time warp. Constantly trying to prove my worth. Unable to write, walk, or move, I have nothing left to prove. Maybe I just don’t belong, Have…