Pursue

I never know where to start Losing my brother to an OD, My father smashed into a wall, But that wasn’t all. A grandfather who molested me, along with his nephew I protested. The cousin who committed suicide and died too soon. He was always the happiest person in the room. My mother had a…

Misfit

up before 5 am, These dreams have me on edge again. Seeing images from my past, Memories I need not last. A time when I was too lost to choose. Every day seemed like bad news. One of anger, Misery and loneliness. Always a misfit. Romanticizing trauma, reliving my drama. Today I sit in a…

Diverged

Alone, I stand, your presence now afar, My greatest dread realized under stars, To part from you, the path I tread, In search of dreams, my heart widespread. Intentions pure, I sought to share, But found myself consumed by despair. Chose you did, a different way, Paths diverged, emotions held at bay. Agreement eluded, hearts…

Remember

It’s your birthday today and I dreamt of you last night, Ironic right? You had the life I’ve always thought I wanted. Leaving me in a wake of destruction, I remember you then, Asking if I’d lay with you in your bed, No one had to know. Your in my mind now, Forged in steel,…

Infecting

Infecting every fiber of my being, Your words overshadow the reality of what I’m seeing. Taking control, Fleeing from my truth. Have I been wrong all along? Thinking I’ve forged the way for those who’ve come after, He’s still a monster in disguise, Hiding behind enemy lines. Lurking, where the law provides him with protection….

Contend

You speak of women in history, their struggle for power, But only if it suits your sour agenda. One for the show, Leaving your own out on the street in her hour of defeat. Beliefs being put to the test, Unable to rest. Needing soldiers by my side, instead, you all ran to hide. Not…

Blast

Shadows of broken dreams Leaves me busting at the seams, Wondering what’s left of me. Full moon peeking through curtains exposing secrets from the past. These memories always seem to last, Putting my self-growth on blast. Continuing to fill me with hope, These feelings invoke unwanted memories enveloping the cracks of my soul. Collapsing down…

Abide

In these moments of silence I Wonder if you’d rather there be another. Someone who seems to uncover the unfortunate reasons I suffer. It’s difficult sitting near you, My heart begins to ponder how you could surround yourself with such dishonor. Their well-being more important than mine. You’d drop my name for a dime as…

Built

Hoping no one asks, It’s a complicated circumstance. Clinging to my success, taking credit for all I once built. Looking back at the wasted energy I never thought you’d become the enemy. The darkness takes hold, Refusing to be put into a mold, Wishing to find solace in this mess. One I must confess I…

Sick

I’m sick today. It’s my nine year anniversary and we’re fighting over you. Wouldn’t it be shocking to know how much I detest the sound of your name? I can’t escape it no matter how hard I try, You’re always there. Head pounding in despair, Throwing up my hands. I could have been everything you…