Away

On this day five years ago I was with you. It’s hard to believe but it’s true. Taking all I have building it back up and walking away. No longer begging to be seen, I have all I need. Do you not think this is real? You’ll never know how I feel, Maybe I’ll see…

Mine

My body was never mine He had his hands on me from before the age of 9. Grinning from ear to ear as his hand slowly caressed my rear. body filled with fear before even knowing what it was. Another year gone by, His nephew decided i wasn’t mine. Then there was the boy in…

Her

Maybe it’s time to write your own story One of glory, Feet in the sand, living off the land. Pushing through these obstacles and nightmares, it doesn’t matter who cares. Nothing repairs the traumas done, But I thought you were the one. Being reminded I’ve come undone, There’s nothing under the sun I haven’t tried…

Path

Came upon a path, covered in green Left unseen. Just a few weeks prior it was a clearing, now cloaked with a blanket for the upcoming summer. I’ll visit again in the fall When the leaves die off and the once abundance turns to death Sweet reminders of friendships that once were, whirling through my…

Pursue

I never know where to start Losing my brother to an OD, My father smashed into a wall, But that wasn’t all. A grandfather who molested me, along with his nephew I protested. The cousin who committed suicide and died too soon. He was always the happiest person in the room. My mother had a…

Guarded

I try not to force you from my mind Instead I ask how this thought serves, Questioning the emotions that follow, leaves parts of me hollow. Reminding myself I’m no longer shallow. Wading through each memory of you and realizing it was so true. Serving a place and time, thinking your love was worth more…

Tower

You have taken all I have, Even all I do not yet possess. These memories constantly put me to the test, Presenting themselves in my dreaming hour. Giving away my ultimate power, To the man in the high tower. Hiding parts of who you are, It’s time to raise the bar. This love turns to…

11.27.22

Finally crossing this threshold on my own Wishing I wasn’t alone, figuring in the end this is how we’d go, You’d stay with them and I’d be here alone. Filling my lungs with regret, I never knew you’d be a threat. Allowing myself to say no, it’s time for you to go. I wonder how…

Retired

I wanted to ruin you, Never having anything to show Friend of my foe. You never know what your motives are, Losing my trust in you, Burying in this water so clear, Changing tides, you switched sides. Selfishly giving up what was fought for, I loved you more than my brother. Would have sworn there…

Disguise

Disgusted you couldn’t be trusted. No wonder you couldn’t look me in the eyes. You’re just another wolf in disguise, With tears in my eyes I had to decide. This wasn’t about my pride. Seeing these kids should make you want to be a role model, Not a figure you want to fondle. These thoughts…